I believe with you

I ran some where, do not where i must going. Now there is only hateful and annoyance, my head is messed up. Apparently granules tears from the eyes of my little through my cheek softly. Yes, I've been in the home Fee, my friend and she was romance with my boyfriend, Ben. At first I came to the home to borrow Fee’s design. I'm interested with the abstract and exciting her design. Later designs for t-shirt that will be made in my business t-shirt online.

And that day was unexpectedly. Fee has betrayed the friendship that we have lived since high school. Me and Ben had relationship almost 2 years. But it all disappear and gone in a moment. I.m not believe it, that's so suck. I hate u Fee, I hate Ben so much.

*SKIP

The gray morning. I awoke from my nightmare, but unfortunately it's all real. Since the incident yesterday, I looked a mess with puffy eyes and messy hair. I remember the events go home from home Fee, I have almost accident with my dad's car. That was scared. My memory attached  is stronger when remember the romance by Fee and Ben. At that time, Fee’s parent were not home.
Fee and Ben tenderly caressed in front of me when I entered that room. Snapped up, they were surprised to see me with tears. I ran outside to avoid the incident that sliced my heart.
AAAAAAHHHHHHHH I hate them so much.

My  iPhone rang, I knew it was from Ben or Fee. How many times since yesterday they contacted me. I came out of the room, I'll have breakfast and take a bath.

"Adelle, what's going on?" asked my mom who was newly arrived from Singapore because it works as a consultant in there.

" Do you think I’m look bad?"

"Yes, absolutely honey" mom hugged me, she knew I was in trouble.

I was not strong enough to hold the anger that so deep. I hugged my mom and tell what happened yesterday.

"Honey, you must know that world so big with many people. So, you must choose good person in your life"

"Thanks mom, I do not know if you are not beside me "

"Of course I never leave you alone. Okay now you must take a bath. Hurry up ..."

My chubby cheeks pinched by mom and she also gave me the spirit in this gray morning.

I headed for ground floor of the the stairs wearing casual clothes. T-shirt that my mom bought in Singapore, I mix and match with jeans with embroidered knitted vest and hot pants jeans.

"Mom, let me drive a car? I'm going to college" I begged spoiled.

If my mom knows a little accident that happened in dad’s car, I would not be allowed to drive. Fortunately, mom don’t know what happened.

"Take the keys on the dining table, but remember you must have to breakfast"

"Yap surely, big of thanks mom" ​​mom let me take the Mercedes. I walked to the dining table.

Mama had prepared fish pattie sandwich  and a glass of hot chocolate. I ate it. iPhone suddenly vibrate, Clarra told me to bring the design. Clarra is my business partner. I went back upstairs to my room and pick it up.

"Mom, i have to go now byee ..." I kissed her forehead and soon got into the car.

" Adelle careful, don’t drive too fast "

"Yes mom" I yelled from the car.

10 minutes on the road and stuck are not long, finally arrived on campus as well. I walked into the canteen and how shocked I see Fee and Ben are together.

"Oh no" I pissed myself. I'm looking for empty seats away from them, on purpose to avoid.
I immediately pulled out Mcbook and my tiny fingers start typing the website www.t-shirtdesign.com and click enter.

This is my online business with Clarra and also "Fee" but since the incident I did not care anymore. Clarra as a distributor and promotion, Fee and I are designing.

Soon, Clarra came.

"Hey Adelle, what are you doing?"

"As usual" I showed him my new design that uses the concept of glamor.

"How?" I said

"Yeah well, the color don’t be calm. Seems less suitable"  

"Okay, I change the selection to be golden and silver?"  

"Yes, it fits all"

"Dell, I saw Ben's close relationship with Fee. How your relationship with Ben?"

"I'm really lazy discussed it"

"Come on, don’t tell me that Ben affair with Fee?"

"I do not know."

"Oh God, tell me about Ben. l will help you Adelle. What's that are not for you?  There's me as your friend."

My face looks red with tears. I hugged and cried Clarra clumsy.

"Clarra, I could not accept it. You know Ben and I are really close and Fee, my friend had hurt me."  Clarra rubbed my shoulder and wiping the tears from my eyes.

"Dell is not too long dissolve in sadness. You do not deserve to cry for those who have hurt you. Now we move into garden., There is no good here anyways there with Ben Bian "

Clarra help bring Mcbook’s Adelle. We moved to the front garden, hope I became more calm.

I tell all the events in the heart-wrenching day. Clarra not expected to Fee, especially me. All I know Ben relationship with Fee only a friends but it all wrong. Mobile Clarra rings, Dion was already waiting in the library to complete the task with Clarra. Clarra hurried away and left Adelle.

"We'll meet at the cafe where we used to hang out, bye"

"Bye" I said softly

"Always keep smiling," she yelled.

I smiled as I wiped away my tears.

Then I went down with Mcbook, designing with a variety of creations. I innovate to make many choices on the t-shirt motif. Suddenly, he heard a man's voice behind me. "Adelle" I think I know, not strangers. Yes, Ben's voice. I don’t see it and just said "Why?"

"There's no reason to clarify, it’s enough." I said

Ben came over and sat beside me.

"Dell, I was wrong. So far I've not truthful with you. I'm sorry"

"It need times" I hung up the Mcbook and stood up to go but Ben held my hand.

"Please give me time to explain it, I want it all clear."

"Ben, as long as you know I've ripped the heart and it makes impression. So what do you mean all this time? Almost 2 years. You don’t think it's nothing?" explode my emotions, tears couldn’t be held.

"I'm sorry Dell, honestly I don’t want hurt you but everything changed. My feeling for you is different. I would love to Fee. Forgive me Dell .“ eyes glued to me in the eye.

" What? I was so patient had relationship for almost 2 years and it is with you ... "

"Ben, as long as you know I really care about you. Why did you choose Fee than me? Remember Ben almost 2 years we were always together" I cried the rain.

Ben touched my cheek and wiped, he didn't see me so strongly weakened to accept reality. I brushed off his hands. I pulled my hand from the grip Ben.

"Ben, I love you .." I can not afford to lose Ben to which the nth time.

Yes, for almost two years, Ben and I have been off and on for the the nth time. Selfish is often the case between us, a fight was inevitable. However, I can’t to let go Ben. Bitter truth must be I have received, it’s very hard. I'm not strong.

"Dell, I honestly don’t want this to happen in a big lie. Only yesterday was not the right time for you to know. "

"Thanks Ben for everything. For your kiss, your smile, your spirit, your help and everything. Thanks .."

"I'm sorry Dell, my feelings for you are not like they used to be. Since the incident, My trust to you is reduced. I'm so sorry" 

Yes, since the incident I was with Ray. Once upon a time about 6 months ago I let Ben. Ray is my exboyfriend before I was dating Ben. When Ray returned from Australia, he was contacted and asked to meet. I didn’t expect to get back in touch with Ray. It turned out that Ray still had hopes to be back with me. It is not known by Ben, my boyfriend now. I don’t want it all happen and everything will be messed up. Most a week I accompanied Ray. I had lunch with him, watching movies, telling stories and jokes. Ray also had me go to the beach to relieve saturation during in Australia. I'm happy to be back with him.

Once we broke up because their parents don’t approve of our relationship and Ray had to go to college in Australia take for architect majors. Finally, for a month I lost contact with Ray and Ben are filling the days of loneliness until now and until we’ll parted.

During the week, Ben didn’t know I being with Ray. At first I was afraid of all that is known by Ben, but in the end all come out  and soon Ray returned to Australia.

Ben was mad with me. He was disappointed the way I behaved to him. I explained that I didn’t intentionally hurt him, but since then, the following days was different. Ben’s trust was less with me, but for me since the incident I was growing loved to Ben. I feel sorry  to have hurt Ben and all had happened,

"Dell?" Ben hit me

"Ben, I'm sorry for what happened in the past. I don’t mean to hurt you. Since then I know you were the best for me. Nothing else." I looked at her closely.

"Dell, things have changed, you know at first I really love you. But, it used to exactly since the incident. I'm sorry dell, now we live in relationship to each other. I've felt very comfortable with the Fee. She always hearing my problem about our relationship. Dell, I feel comfortable with Fee .. "

"Ben, don’t leave me .." Adelle hugged Ben closely for the last time.

"Sorry, I can't. Maybe this is the best option for us" warm smile shine from her lips.

*The bell rings

I immediately took off his arms and left Ben with a heart so upset. With a weakness I stood and walked to class.

* SKIP

Graphic design subject have been finished. I ran to the the parking and got into the car. I closed the car door and throwing hard the Mcbook. I was crying and hitting the steering wheel.

* SKIP

During the week I don’t care about my health. The days are so hard I went through. I don’t expect it all happen.  Clarra always gave me a spirit and try to comfort me. What about Fee? I don’t want to know it. Surely they've been together and Fee must know how I feel.

Almost two times I had an accident while driving a car. The days are very messed up, online business is almost not maintained. Fee seems to have come out of my business, I don’t know. I seem to only want to own, calm the mind and tries to forget Ben. But that is impossible.

*A month later

Unknowingly disturbed my health. Illness relapsed, I was suffering lung cancer. My youth was different to those who are healthy. I don’t know, God had other plans are better for me.

* SKIP

Finally I went into the hospital. My health has declined. Mom worried about me. First, she wanted to call Ben, but I forbid it. But mom still tells Ben about my condition. Mom  knew my condition worsened by problems with Ben. I was in the hospital and my breathing helped by oxygen cylinders. I see all around, all white.

I remember back in high school where I was in the hospital like this. It very hurt. Even sadder because Ben didn’t there for me. Before going in the hospital, I always call and ask him to meet but Ben doesn’t care. I know, maybe he was trying to forget and appreciate the Fee as her new girlfriend. Last Fee to send a message to me and explain all and apologized. Yes, I forgive her. It's not entirely his fault. Only the past that makes it all happen, and I was wrong. I try to convince you Ben, but not there place  for me? I really hope that.

"Adelle, always spirit. You must be strong, prove it to me" Clarra smiled at me.

"Thanks a lot Clarra. I love you" I said

"Adelle, get well soon. I always beside you. Don’t make mom sad with your condition. Keep strong" mama's style exercise show currently called 'keep strong' and I was laughing

"Mom, I will fine. Don’t worry about me." I smile

I remembered the song that has been made. The song tells about the story with Ben. I hope Ben can go back to trust me and back with me and had a wonderful day.

I asked mom to take the DVD in my bag on the table.

"What is this?" asked mom.

"For Ben, mom" I smiled

"Well let mom give to Clarra to be delivered to Ben."

"Yes, mom." I said simple

The DVD is a video I made for Ben. I made a song for her. I purposely made ​​the song as an expression of my last to convince him that I have great hopes to it.

*2 days later

I had to taken to Singapore for the healing process. Ben late to see me. I hope he comes but it seems it did not happen. 

* SKIP

DVD's has come to Ben. With a trembling heart, he opened it. In the DVD, I holds the guitar and said,

"Ben, I will keep convince you that I love you. You are the best for me ever. I love you Ben..."

Adelle played his guitar and singing,

If I could ever say it right
And reach your hostage heart despite
The doubts you harbor then you might
Come to believe in me

The life I lead is not the kind
That gives a woman peace of mind
I only hope someday you'll find
That you can believe in me

Those other loves that came before
Mean nothing to me anymore
But you can never be quite sure
And will not believe in me

Too many hearts have been broken
Failing to trust what they feel
But trust isn't something that's spoken
And love's never wrong when it's real

If I could only do one thing
Then I would try to write and sing
A song that ends your questioning
And makes you believe in me

And makes you believe in me
Oh, you can believe in me

Ben had tears in his eyes and believes that Adelle will always love him forever ... 

“Adelle, I believe with you....”